Wednesday, October 26, 2005

educational outsourcing

i'm all for private tutors, but this is ridiculous:

"It's called e-tutoring -- yet another example of how modern communications, and an abundance of educated, low-wage Asians, are broadening the boundaries of outsourcing and working their way into the minutiae of American life, from replacing your lost credit card through reading your CAT scan to helping you revive your crashed computer."

something about it weirds me out.

the reason teachers don't stay after school longer to help kids is we don't get paid past our contracted time. granted, i stay until 4:00 almost every day because i do have kids that come in and stay that long, but the school is almost always empty after 3:00. it's sad really -- i think it says more about the teachers than the kids. we've chosen a career that doesn't pay well because it's something we love to do. i know how frustrating it is for the kids -- to the point that i've offered help with Spanish, math, and history after school. (a handful have taken advantage of it.)


Tuesday, October 18, 2005

today was a good day. my kids made me smile.

and they think i'm cool.


Friday, October 14, 2005

i'm hungry. where is all the food?

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Monday, October 10, 2005

i'm not sorry for kicking you out last night.

i was angry. i was hurt.

this weekend i felt like your responsibility. your burden. your weekly chore. i don't want to be a "to-do" you pencil in on saturday, a tentative appointment allowed to be shifted, interrupted. i want to know our time is sacred enough to you that you don't entertain the idea of anyone-else-ness. only you-and-me-ness.

i don't want to be forgotten... not again.

i don't want to wait for a phone call that never comes.

i don't want to feel like second place.

i want to be your everyday.

«i'm still waiting for
you to be the one i'm waitin for
something tells me that this is going to make sense
something tells me it's going to take patience
something tells me that this will all work out in the end...»

Friday, October 07, 2005

rain, rain, go away...

:) actually, it's really nice. we haven't had a good downpour in a long time.

the weekend... well, there will have to be some time that i devote to work. i stayed until 4 today to finish up some work. that means i will have less to do on tuesday. ;) i'm looking forward to having an extra day to relax.

this weekend, i want to feel... inspired. it's been a while.

oh, and... hello brendan. :)

Monday, October 03, 2005

days of solitude

i have been away for so long. it wasn't hard to stay away... life has been busybusybusy.

work is fulfilling... stressful... invigorating... frustrating... all at once. my life seems to mimic that too. there hasn't been a lot going on, but it always feels that way.

my weekend wasn't great. i fell asleep while ryan was here and i didn't know he left. i wasn't feeling like myself at all. it was like there was something lodged in the back of my head that i couldn't quite figure. it's still there... a little self-reflection is in order, i believe.


late at night, i feel like life has left me by the wayside...

oh, i almost forgot - it's been 26 months. <3